Childhood

THIS IS DAILY POST’S WORD PROMPT

I don’t know how to explain my childhood. Obviously, I’m still experiencing it. However, I’m on the cusp of adulthood, seeing that I’m a teenager. I never went to that emo/rebel phase like most teenagers do. I’m not a rebel. Asking for something I deserve is not rebellion. It’s every individual’s basic right.

I probably wouldn’t want to return to my childhood. I had more angst as a child, than as a teenager.  I feel more emotionally stable now. After I graduate from school, I don’t want to go back. I wouldn’t want to return to a phase of my life, wherein I was compared with every other cousin and extra kids, who claimed to be related to me. I wouldn’t want to return to phase, wherein nobody gave a shit about me. Today, they followed me to this website, thinking of this as some kind of showdown. I don’t need sympathy.  I want someone to listen to me. I don’t need advice.

I’m not looking forward to adulthood really.  I’m looking forward to college. Two grades more, and I’ll be done.

I’m not determined to stay unhappy, but, I’m just disappointed that I’m surrounded by so many unnecessary people.  People who claim to be related to me, but,  I feel so lonely.  Is it wrong to stand out? Is it wrong not to be a puppet? I want them to answer these questions right here, if they have the guts. Why do I have to be treated unequally? Well, hell yeah, they don’t deserve my attention.

I’m not writing humor right now. Life is not a piece of cake.  Life is a major sorcery (okay, now I sound emo).

Sing

(THIS IS TODAY’S DAILY POST WRITING PROMPT)

Singing regularly can keep your voice younger.  This is a health tip I read on TIME magazine. I’m a good singer. However, people consider me more as a writer than a singer. I have auditioned, and been rejected. I was also part of a choir once in my life. And, now I’m in a brass band. Yes, I play the trumpet.

Talking about singing, let me take first generation kpop idol, Bada into consideration. During the IMF Financial Crisis in Korea, when most people lost their houses and filed for bankruptcy, young Bada had to live on the streets. She, then, auditioned for SM Entertainment, which I have mentioned earlier in one of my posts. In 1996, she debuted as a member of the legendary girl group, S.E.S. Then, we have BoA, who has been gaining popularity in the US (if you’re from the US and don’t know her, it’s okay. You’re not living under a rock). Young Kwon Boa was scouted as a trainee by SM. Her parents didn’t want her to train, but Boa’s determination and talent moved them. In 2000, at the age of 13, she debuted as a solo artiste. Today, she’s one of the most respected people in the Korean entertainment industry.

I think, that people who can sing can heal the world. I believe that Beyonce can heal the world. It doesn’t matter, if you’re tone-deaf. Taemin of  SHINee (Korean boy band) was also tone-deaf and was a terrible singer. Today, he’s known for his improved vocals.

Witness Protection

(THIS IS TODAY’S DAILY POST WRITING PROMPT)

I’m scared of heights, because I have a heart condition, and I get serious motion sickness. Not that I throw up, but, I start shivering a lot, my vision blurs, and my chest aches. So, I won’t talk about bungee jumping or roller coasters here.

Public speaking is something that I’m used to. But, I go through stage anxiety before I have to sing onstage. That time, I prefer to be surrounded by strangers, because, my friends have goofy expressions most of the time. Plus, I can grow my fanbase beyond just my friends.

Can’t Stand Me

I can’t stand listening to my voice or watching my own video.
I record song covers (video and audio).
Whenever I watch my own videos, I feel like I have high levels to actually how unattractive I am. It sucks really. My voice is very high-pitched. I’m fifteen now, but I sound like I’m twelve.
I wanted to start video blogging this year, but I guess I should stick to writing, because my looks aren’t very appealing. Plus, I have no expressions on my face most of the time. My face is as inexpressive as a pumpkin. I don’t look approachable and sociable, but I am. I wanted to do standup comedy on YouTube. Perhaps I’m good with deadpan humor (at least that’s what people say).

Huh Gak, a Korean ballad singer, says, that he can’t stand listening to his own voice. But, that helps him to improve with every performance.

Can you stand listening to your own voice recording or watching your own video?